Have a nice Nicolaus day!
Is this really me I wonder
I’m so different lately
So at ease with everything
So full of love and tenderness
I know I’ve reached
the point of no return
There is no going back
And for sure I wouldn’t
have it any other way
Once again I’m getting stronger
finally following my dreams
bury my history in the past
fight for what I believe in
Out of the blue, all because of you
When the facts change, I change my mind. What do you do? – John Maynard Keynes
I woke up this morning with a thought of you making me smile
and the picture of you lingered in my sleepy head for a while.
I’ve been dreamin’ about you again and now I miss you so bad
and the thoughts runnin’ through my head are driving me mad.
I’d love to hold you in my arms right now and kiss you goodnight
just to make sure you my darlin’ feel loved and alright.
for me to become part of something magical again.
Therefore I just sent in the names of the people who are truly dear to me to the Benedictine monks from the Dormition Abbey in Jerusalem for their wonderful Christmas Special called ‘Ich trage Deinen Namen in der Heiligen Nacht nach Bethlehem’ (= I carry your name on Christmas Eve to Bethlehem).
According to the biblical understanding the person, which bears that name, is present in a name.
Meanwhile it’s a beloved tradion for me to be part of this amazing Christmas Special and to make a donation to the monks.
This year they will collect the names and write them down onto a large scroll until Saturday 22 December 2012.
As every year they’ll carry this scroll to the Church of the Nativity on their herdsmen walk on Christmas Eve to Bethlehem, where they’ll lay it down on the star in the Grotto of the Nativity.
If you want to learn more about the Dormition Abbey in Jerusalem and the monks feel free to visit their website on: http://www.dormitio.net/english/index.html , or you can contact them via: http://www.dormitio.net/english/en.info/en.contact/index.html
The photo is sole property of the Dormition Abbey
You find the online form for the Christmas Special here: http://www.dormitio.net/engagement/weihnachtsaktion/beteiligung/index.html#form
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His heart full of dreams
he goes to extremes
Always going too far
he’s a true star
Listening to his heart
he struggles for his art
Sometimes he gets tired
of being admired
When the need arises
he provokes and polarizes
One day will be his name
written in the hall of fame
Credits to the photographer of the photo which I found in the www many years ago.
“Break a leg” into your ear, hugs & kisses you lovingly in spirit. ♥Xo
…feel yourself embraced in a very lovingly long hug. I”m already counting the minutes. Can’t wait any longer.
Always yours,
-m <3Xo
I love YOU 🙂 ♥Xo
…Wer morgen mit MARS VyRTen wird?
Because she’s already at home again. 😉
wanna send you some love, a lovingly 😐 & a gentle Eskimo kiss, mon cherie. ♥Xo
Mon chérie,
Since my BB didn’t work all day long until now I had a lot of time to think again about my words from yesterday. From the distance I see crystal clear what a huge mistake I’ve made.
I take your point that to keep my thoughts to myself is no solution and not helpful at all.
Your silence just confirms this.
Besides it would be totally out of character for me.
Therefore I’ve taking-the-inward-turn and have reflected once again about the whole topic.
So I became convinced that I needed to question what I had believed so far and to consider it from different angles.
While I did this I found out that I was lead by my fear and my love for you, since I was so afraid you could end up being seriously harmed. But meanwhile I remembered that even Buddha once did what you do right now, without getting harmed in the process. And suddenly I understood what you are looking for.
And I feel ashamed of myself for being so blind before and for not having faith enough that you for sure know what you do, since you always trust your gut. Maybe I even have misunderstood one of your messages as I had thought you wanted me to hold you back.
Please forgive me for being so blind and making you feel bad, my love. I really should have known it better. I can only learn from my mistakes and make it better in the future.
Forgive me that I haven’t realized earlier that you have to cross your own boarders when you want to gain some extraordinary experiences in life.
You can be sure I won’t tell you something like you’re looking great, when it’s not what I feel, as I would lie to you then. But what I can tell you, with my deepest conviction, is that you are going to represent what you want to represent in the best way possible and for sure you have my absolute deepest respect for your colossal discipline.
I don’t know one single person, incl. myself, who is as disciplined as you, my love. Chapeau!
Truth to be told, I’m truly glad to know you’re okay and I wish you all the strength you need and that you may find what you are looking for.
Feel yourself tenderly caressed, ma cherie.You can be sure, I’m with you in spirit.
Gute Nacht & lots
of love. F
eel yourself embraced in a looo
ng and tight warm-hearted hug and very
gently kissed on your cheek. 🙂 ♥ Xo
Always yours,
-m
P. S.
@}—>—-
P. S. II I miss you!
*blows you a lovingly kiss over the ocean*
Dearest Sweetheart,
I’m so sorry, but this f-ing track pad striked again. 😦
So it’s much later now…
First and foremost let me thank you for you-know-what. 😉
I missed you sooo much today.
Cherie, after catching up with a lot of readings and news I see, you have to do this just the way you do it. And even if I wish you wouldn’t do this to yourself I understand, you have to cross that line, because it’s simply not in your nature to do it otherwise. And I don’t want you to change, as I love you just the way you are.
But please understand that it is not easy for me, as I’m so worried about you because of my love for you.That’s why I begged you to stop. It was my way to try to save you from yourself, if you know what I mean, my love.
But it’s not my intention to make it any harder for you., So I’ll try my best to be there for you and to support you whenever you need it.Maybe we can talk about your motivation in private one day, since I still would love to understand you much better than I already do.
For the moment please forgive me, that I’ll keep my thoughts in this matter to myself from now on, as I think there will always be a part of me that still wants to slap you for being so f-ing self-destructive.
I just beg you to make sure to take good care of yourself.Remember: I belong with you, you belong with me… 🙂
Gute Nacht & lots of love, mon cherie. ♥Xo
Always yours,
-m
*blows you a gentle lovingly kiss over the ocean*
P. S. I ♥ you
…would have heard me cursing today, you may have thought you had been listening to a bloody pirate.
Only because this damn track pad refused to move again. 😦
Please give me some time to catch up what’s new and to read your messages, okay cherie?
Lots of love <3Xo
Would you PLEASE stop being mad at me, cherie? I miss your love. 😦
To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you someone else is the greatest accomplishment. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
” Deja brew: the feeling you had this coffee before.” – Shannon Leto
Much love from me to YOU
…like to dance with me in the moonlight?
Ma cherie,
Jared Leto tweeted a quote by Vincent van Gogh today, which gave me food for thoughts:
“What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?”
Of course we should try as much as we can in life, but not at any price, in my opinion.
There is a thin red line between courage and to overdue something , if you ask me.
I know that you always do whatever the fuck you want and you know
that I would never judge you for a decision you make.
But to be honest, I would have never ever thought that you would do something like that twice, since you have already been there a couple of years ago and you said many, many times that you don’t want to repeat yourself.
This confuses me.
If I had known that you would do this, I wouldn’t have encouraged you to return the way I did, that’s for sure. Because the price you pay for it is way too high for my liking.
And now be mad at me, if you want, that I had to speak my mind, but I had to get this off from my heart because contrary to what you think sometimes I do care for you, my love.
Maybe more than I should, I know, since you’re a grown up person. But I can’t help myself, I love you too much to want you to get hurt.
And I confess, the egoist in me wants you to be with me for a very, very, very long time.
In this sense… 🙂
Lots of love, mon amour & gute Nacht ♥Xo
*blows you a gentle lovingly kiss over the ocean*
Bonjour mon amour,
Mon dieu! I’m so unfuckingfassbar*1 glad that you’re not mad at
me.
I’m deeply sorry but I cannot watch the films at the moment. All I can do is to read the poetry. So as you can imagine, the first one is unfortunatelly missing. 😦
How are you doing today, ma cherie?
I’m fine and as I work really hard I make great progress every day.
I can’t stop thinking about you and I wish I could be with you to comfort you.
Please take care.
Stay in good health and feel yourself embraced in a long and very lovingly VyRTual hug.
Gute Nacht & lots of love ♥Xo
Always yours,
-m
P. S. I ♥ you
*1 ‘unfuckingfassbar’ is a new denglish word, created by the Irish singer / songwriter Rea Garvey during the first season of The Voice of Germany.
To quote Urban Dictionary
“Unfassbar” is the German definition of unbelievable or unconceivable.
Rea uses this term when he is breathtaken, speechless and in awe of a singer’s performance.
An english translation would be something along the lines of “unfuckingbelievable”.
See: http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Unfuckingfassbar
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